Kaylee's >> Fashion Diary

Well as you all know I stopped doing these due to my sweet little baby turning into a crazy toddler! Today she finally started posing again and I just had to document it!

     Today two of my mommy friends and I went on a "play date" of sorts with our youngest kids. We had 3 kids in all. All 2 and under which made it quite intresting! First we spent a few hours around Ikea shopping. I love Ikea so much but Kaylee truely makes shopping a pain in the booty. She screams demands, wants down, and climbs all over everything. After what felt like an eternity we went across the street and lunched at California Pizza Kitchen and tried to unwind a little! I feel so blessed to have amazing Mommy friends! In all I think our mommy date was a success!

::Outfit Details::

Fox Sweater: Cherokee for Target

Black Peter Pan Collar Shirt: Joe Fresh for JC Penny

Argyle print leggings: Joe Fresh for JC Penny

Black Boots: Cherokee for Target

Besties & Alter Ego's // OOTD

      There are so many quailties a best friend must have in my eyes. I love people who inspire me, make me laugh over the dumbest thing and who know when I need extra hugs . I think all my besties have these, plus a million awesome other qualities. But my fav is when you can strip all your outer layers and be yourself and show eachother your alter egos .

       I find, as a creative person that ALL great ideas start from a persons alter ego , or otherwise known as your inner self. As an artist your alter ego is you but ,like a bad ass, I don't giva a F@$!? what you say ,kind of you! Its so hard to be that most days because life just doesnt want to work that way. Whenever I hang out with my bestest friends I feel completely comfortable and explore myself in such a fun way. 

     As a mother and wife I have an important role I play to my family. I often find myself toning my real personality down a few notches ,at times ,when I need to be serious and it can slowly change you. I didn't notice it for years and then one day I realized I didnt do the things I was once soooo pationate about. I found myself not listening to music for a substantial amount of time. I wasnt really thinking about myself and that really scared me. Music has always been my life, my therapy ,my soul, my one peace to run to when all else failed. I dont think anyone who is not a mother could relate to the moment you realize how little you think about yourself in a day? How something like being able to listen to my music , alone, something I once did without thinking about ,just to have been fogotten all together.

      Today ,my best friend ,Cori and I took the kids to Venice Beach and had a bestie date. She makes me feel sane. She is also a mother of two Jaydin (6) and Lily (3) and is one of the only people who might just understand ALL of me. I feel like she is the one that relates to me, my life ,and my past the most. I think she brings out the best in me and thats why it always feels amazing to be around her. Today we played in front of the camera and had a blast doing so together. Talked about life, fashion , money , kids, and just caught up! Today I showed her my fashionista alter ego and I think she showed me her fashionista side she wants to work more on. We laughed at how motherhood can just dull your style and made plans to go shopping more often and really push our fashion boundaries. These are conversations you can ONLY have with someone you are beyond comfortable with and well thats why I love her!

     On my own quest to push myself out of my safe style bubble I decided to mix a rocker/feminine style together (my fav)! Through Instagram I have met such an inspiring and adorable cute woman , owner of TopKnotGoods, Natalie. She is such a beauty inside and out its ridiculous. She just launched her website and my t-shirt I am wearing is from her very popular T-shirts " No Rest for the Rad". Go check her she has AMAZING things!!!

Website: www.topknotgoods.com

Instagram:  topknotgoods

My Outfit Details:

Sunnies: Exhaliration for Target

Studded Vest- Forever 21

Shirt: "No Rest for the Rad" Top Knot Goods

Polka Dot shorts: Exhaliration for Target

Black tights- Target

Black Studded Boots- Mossimo for Target

Gold watch- Micheal Kors 

A mirror into the past

      Being a mother teaches you a lot. About how to care for others , how to be selfless. How to survive a day of teething and how to change a diaper in the dark so you don't have to wake up the baby. But more importantly it teaches you how to listen with your whole heart and give it all back. Lately, my oldest Justin, has began to teach me  more about myself than ever before. I see so many bits and pieces of myself it scares me.

        I had truly almost forgotten how argumentative I used to be. I mean like reallyyyy argumentative to the point where my mom just HAD to give in. Justin has such a determination of things and he quickly becomes passionate  about them.  I see that fire in his eye. Things go south when his goal becomes to have the newest Xbox after breaking his WII due to his own irresponsibility. Our arguments have become long and ugly debates that go back and forth.

       Its such a surreal feeling to be the authority against yourself from decades ago. That moment that everyone warns you about  when you sound exactly like your mother ,has really given me insights on how I want to parent him.  I have started to force myself to remember how I felt back then and what I wish my mom would of understood but couldn't.

      A mirror of my young self has been placed in front of me. Its my turn to take a long and painfully 

deep look into myself. As much as I feel I have changed and can brush all my old problems away ,I cant. Its my chance to figure out why I acted  and felt the way I did so I can help my little mini me a little more accurately.  It has become a blessing and a curse all at the same time to have him be  as complicated as me. Nobody really warns ya "hey not only are you gonna raise them but they will be your real life therapy". I feel like he is helping me in more ways than I will ever be able to return the thanks you's. I hate when I read those quotes about mothers not reaping the rewards of their hard work till their kids are older. The rewards are everywhere, EVERYDAY they are just so small and hard to see.