I was able to stay home with him for 2 years and tried my hardest to cherish every single moment. This year I look at our lives and just cry because Justin and I have lived many lives together. More importantly in a realistic way grew up together!
The reason this birthday has been really hard on me is because something in him changed. He has become a big kid. He talks differently, he thinks differently. Heck he even walks different?! He is more aware of the world around him and NOTHING gets passed him. He can hold a real conversation and occasionally gives better advice than adults! He has become an amazing student and loves to read. And well he has changed.
As I sit here trying to write with huge tears rolling down my face . I tell myself well he grew up?!?? And its hard /happy/sad/joyful mainly sad because he was my first baby. I fought hard to give him a good life no matter what horrible and difficult circumstance life threw at me and I have so much I mean SO much to thank Justin when he is older because he changed me and gave me the motivation and more importantly the determination to be a better person. So yes this is the birthday I will never forget for its when my baby officially grew up into a big kid! :)